LAST DAY AS AN EXTERN

Did i ever mention that i am a law extern?(yeah,we all thought it should be intern.) I am not so sure i did.Well,i am and for the past six weeks i have devouted my time,thoughts,body and soul to my externship programme.It has been tasking,there were hilarious moments especially in the court rooms from crazy wigs and decorum in the court to funny proceedings.This and many more i had to sit through as an aspiring lawyer who wants to be called to Bar by November. 

But now,its time to say good bye to all that and head back to the law school in preparation for our BAR FINALS(i just had to put in caps lock for effect).There’s a certain type of feeling in the air,for some its fear,happiness,worry,just different types of feeling that i can’t seem to describe.Questions are pouring into our hearts as to how ready we are and our portfolio assessment would be. 

I,on the other hand can’t describe how i feel,it seems that i am not feeling a thing(i wonder why because i am a feeler,is that a word?i doubt.)I just want to get it over and done with,am i so ready? no,i don’t think so.can i be ready? yes,i can(i scream out in the Obama way). 

It was truly a blessed six weeks and am ever so grateful to My Father in heaven for his love and awesome grace,not forgetting the infinite wisdom of the Holy Spirit in my life.This next five weeks will be drilling but hey,i have the squad with me and they have my back (THE HOLY TRINITY). 

So this is my last post till August,i will be back to finish up what i started and to write some other crazy stuffs.If i stay longer than necessary without any post,i just might be having loads of fun.#winks.Take care everyone.God bless.

WAS I IN A MOVIE?? #FLASHBACK

There’s nothing like starting afresh somewhere,wherever that place might be,you just know that your going to make new friends and meet new people so you are excited because this is a different situation,a different place.That was how i felt when i stepped into the church,hey am not saying i have never been to church or this church,its the same church but in a different location. 

My heart was tasty for the word of God and for change,to me there was going to be no distractions,nothing,just me,God and my new friends.But believe me,the thing about plans is that something odd always, always happens,most especially when i don’t expect them.Coming to this new church had done me some good,i was making new pals and just enjoying everyday,till one fateful Sunday,i arrived church,seated,happy,ready for the service and as usual,the Pastor comes up to the pulpit,am listening,taking in and down the word,i wasn’t going to miss a word.Suddenly i begin to feel a prickle down my spine,you know that odd feeling you get when someone is watching you.I decide to discard it,maybe i was feeling the chills from the full blast of the air conditioners in church,still the feeling is strong and now am convinced that i am being watched,by who? i wonder, the Pastor? they watch everyone in church, don’t they? i raise my eyes to be sure if i was being scrutinized by the man of God but its clear i am far from his line of vision.Who is staring at me? I ask myself.

I turn to the right of the stage and i am trapped in an eye lock with this usher,i turn back to be sure its not me he is looking at but there’s nobody at my back smiling or acknowledging his stare.I turn back to my Bible and quickly look up to be certain and this time, the usher smiles at me,enveloped with shyness i turn back down.After service,heading home,i relish the moment and ponder but once home,i forget about it. 

This is the situation i came to live with as every time i step into church this usher is sparing me a smiling glance.i decide what harm could happen if i smile back so i smile back once in awhile,then am sharing this gist with my friend,telling her that the usher is staring at me and that he is a cutie(oh,yes he is).Being a crazy story teller,i begin to add some spices to the gist,before you know it,I am all but standing before this guy with my mouth open(if it were possible).On a fateful day,after service,as though God was tired of my stories and wanted to create a reality for me,i couldn’t get a ride home and just as i was deciding what to do,this usher walks towards my direction and says 

“do you need a ride?” smiling at me.i look at him back and all i could do was nod my head.Next thing,am in the car,say something i tell myself but no words come out,to be honest i just felt happy to be in the car,to be close to this guy.I decide in my heart to force my mouth open and say something.. football,most guys like that but first his name, 

“Sorry,i don’t know your name” my voice sounds funny like a 5year old talking. 

“oh my name,its actually ………,whats yours?” he says to me smiling.(herein referred to as usher guy). Soon enough,i have opened the door to little discussions and its like a road to friendship has just opened up.we get to my bus stop and i say thank you and step down and he says to me see you later. i smile into my street. 

I quickly text my friend what occurred and she says to me 

 “God has answered your prayers o”, i smile to myself,wondering if i really prayed for this.

WAS I IN A MOVIE??

Its Sunday morning,the sky is a little cloudy,but my mood is awesome,hey,i am heading to thank God for His grace and love,nothing could go wrong.Last week i had a wonderful experience in church,praising and worshiping God for answered prayers,one of my prayer points being that God should take charge of all that concerns my heart. 

To be honest,i was in a fantastic mood,this Sunday,dressed to the tens(can i say that?),nothing could go wrong but just as i step out,it starts raining crazy,i had no umbrella,am getting drenched(may i say i have had ample opportunity to get an umbrella,even the Holy Spirit has reminded me over and over).i keep running to the bus stop to get a bus and praying for an umbrella,telling the Holy Spirit that i would listen to him all the time.By this time, i am soaked and just as i am rounding up at the bus stop,i see an umbrella lady and i get one and off i am to church.Its still a great day i say. 

i get to church,i see one of the ushers(we will call him fair usher)and he stops and goes on about how good i am looking and he is admiring me,i can see that.it lifts my mood.so i step into church.service is going on and my eyes zoom on the other usher(we will call him usher guy)…  #flashback: this usher guy is my friend and we are cool,i actually like him but somethings have happened,so i am not so sure but we still friends(i’ll bring this gist later)…#

Service ends great,i decide to stay back in church and wait for the communion service but first i have to find my PCF leader,on the hunt for him i bump into fair usher,he smiles,i have no choice but to smile back.He asked me who i am looking for,i tell him,he says ok and i pass  by and then i see who i am looking and i am done with that business,as i am heading back into church,i bump into fair usher(why am i just seeing him?) and he asked me if i am heading home,i say no,that i am staying in church and just as i am about to walk away,he says,would i like to come with him?.My thoughts are this dude is friends with usher guy and i am sure he knows whats up and why would i go with him,we are not friends or anything.just as i am about to say no,my mouth says yes.Before i know it he is all charming with me,opening the car door,helping me in and talking to me and all this time am going in my head,what am i doing? 

We get to his pad,he is a gentleman,making me comfortable,really nice and all,at this time i just keep telling the Holy Spirit to take charge,he puts a movie(am movie crazed),its a chick flick(first time watching it with a dude other than my friend)and before i know it,i say something from the movie about relationship list.he pauses the movie and says we have to discuss that because he is interested in whats in my list,i deflect the answer.Next thing we are going on and on swapping gist,we are actually having fun, talking and time is just going and within 2hours,we have learnt a lot about each other.we check the time,we have to head back to church,still the gentleman he is.Then as we are still talking birthdays and chocolates(i adore) as a gift.He asked me one question,am i ready to get married?(where is this coming from?i wonder),i pause and just as he is about to go on,a friend appears to join us.Off we go to church. 

Back at church i spot usher guy and i am like oh shoot, what am i doing,then i turn to look at fair usher and he is staring at me.my eyes keep going back and forth.its like i am in a movie,my heart does this funny movement and i am like,  

“Holy Spirit,no way,this is not it.i can’t even think there.”  

Communion ends, i am about to leave,i pause (its like a scene from Grey’s Anatomy),i try to move forward to fair usher to say thank you and then usher guy looks at me and smiles at me(i guess he thinks i am coming to meet him) and then i look towards fair usher and he is just looking at me.i just can’t move forward,i just turn and as i am about to turn out i look back and fair usher is still looking me.

I am back home but i can’t wash off the feeling,i close my eyes and all i can say in my head is, was i in a movie??

HOW NICE IS NICE?

This questions seems to puzzle me everyday,i ask myself how nice do i have to be in this case or this matter.i do understand the beauty of being nice and polite but sometimes i wonder if i haven’t let myself become stupid in return as to how nice i have been.In life,everyone deserves you being nice to them but not everyone deserves your extra mile of niceness because honestly they will make a fool out of you for it.People shouldn’t give less respect just cause your nice to them,you shouldn’t get trampled on just because you chose to be nice.

Being nice is a beautiful quality,you shouldn’t question yourself for being nice to people or to feel that you shouldn’t have to be nice because you get tramped on.NO!,the other ones who don’t understand the beauty in your politeness or in your patience and smile should be the ones to question themselves.God made everything about you beautiful,be nice,be who you ought to be,but don’t let anyone take you for granted because God doesn’t and He won’t be happy if you do.

So be nice,help people but cut out anyone who will make you question the beauty in your niceness.